the end of the rainbow

I had the most uplifting spontaneous meditation this afternoon.  Nothing like that has ever happened, that I can recall.  I can't express how refreshing it was, especially as my meditation practice has fallen into disrepair.  Or flat out disuse.  The pattern of stopping and starting is so familiar I just have to relax and not beat myself up for the natural cycles I follow.  Maybe this is the beginning of a new energy for daily sitting.  I hope so.

I was sitting out in the sun, just wanting to get a good dose of vitamin D.  It's been so beautifully sunny and not hot out yet that sitting in the sun is truly enjoyable.  Luxurious.  It tingles the skin and feels blissfully mesmerizing.  The breeze was a perfect complement to the warm rays, gently sweeping the heat up and away.

As I was lounging on the adirondack chair with my eyes closed, lost in dream-like thought wanderings, I noticed the sun on my eyelids was bright red energy pulsing rhythmically, and I could feel my root chakra energy spiraling down and out from my lower pelvis.
My attention moved upward to the sacral chakra, spinning in the space between my groin and belly button - I could feel the intensity of the spin in my womb.
Up to the solar plexus, nestled below and beneath the breastbone . . . the spinning energy reminded me of what it feels like to get the breath knocked out of me.
Moving up to the heart chakra, a swelling of energy up and out from the heart center, and a flash of a large flower with a sapphire in the center of it in my mind, expanding until it filled the mindspace and beyond.
The throat chakra had a distinctly gyrating spiraling motion, rather than a disc-like spin.  If I imagined looking down internally from inside my head (which I do) I could see it spiraling at the deep base of my throat, just behind the soft spot between my clavicle bones.
The sixth chakra, my third eye, burst out warmth and I could feel a buzzing on my forehead and into the middle of my head.
But the really amazing part was when I looked up to my crown chakra, I had a massive rush of energy move up and out, spiraling and expanding wildly out of the top of my head.  Best of all, the wind was in perfect synchrony with me and gave a strong gusty breeze to wash up and over me.  I was totally expansive, weightless, feeling like pure energy, in those few moments.

It was elating, and cleansing, and refreshing, and inspiring.  I felt like I'd had a burst of wind through my energetic system.  I felt a bit lighter, as if I could float a little.  I imagined the energy washing through my chakras, shining out as light, all the colors of the rainbow.

That got me onto quantum physics.  Our reality is constructed by our perceptions, by our consciousness, and our observations change what we observe.  If we, or I guess any aware consciousness, are not observing something it does not stay "fixed" - it goes back into probability mode.  The moment we turn our attention to something, that something moves from possibility to reality, or in other words, it doesn't exist until we engage it.  A bit of a head fucker.

So, back to my chakra light wave - a rainbow, or anything and everything, doesn't exist unless we perceive it.  Light is not seen as light if we are not looking at it.  Don't ask me what it does or where it goes - I barely have a grasp on this stuff.  It becomes a possibility again.

Another tandem thought inserted itself in my post-sun-meditation reverie: what is at the end of the rainbow (a silly question, since rainbows are circles)?  Considering rainbows wouldn't exist to us if we couldn't see them, and energetically we're composed of rainbows, I'd say we are.